spent the whole time in church trying to dodge the family. shite, why am i such a piece of chicken shit??? i just felt like i let his mom down, big time. *sigh* and she's such a wonderful person that letting her down is like letting down mother teresa.
so it doesn't help that she tells me she misses me and that she couldnt stop crying in church cuz of us, when i sent her a very innocent 'happy mothers' day' sms. perfect. here come them waterworks again.
it will get better. it will get better. i know it will get better. i just gotta suck up the right now. but it will get better. it is getting less untolerable already. i will be fine. i am always fine. i am fine.
*breathes*