Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Today, I...

Today i woke up, and i thought it was thursday.
Today i cursed that it wasn't.

Today i read all the way to work, and thanked God i didn't get off the bus with a splitting headache.
Today i spent all day rushing to meet production, all the time wondering what the hell u were up to.

Today i met a man, the company's India correspondent. he laughed and joked with me, he engulfed my hand in his.
Today, two hours later, i learned he was lying on the table, his rib cage open to a doctor trying to save him from a heart attack.

i thought about the brevity of life.

Today i got a pat on the back by my boss for doing a good job on the feature, and i thought, maybe this isn't so bad.

and then i thought, what i sucker i am for compliments, and laughed.

Today, as i looked into my mutton curry and naan dinner, i thought of the man. then i turned my thoughts to xinwei, my naan and mutton curry buddy.

Today i learnt how to parallel park. and i learnt how bad i am at it.

Today i received an overseas sms about something ridiculous that i haven't done in my life, and i thought.. i doubt i'd ever, babette.

Today i realised how much i love and miss her for her nonsense.

Today i skipped rope, hoping to God i won't self-combust from the furnace burning in my chest.

Today i took a long relaxing shower, and thought...

so what if i want a better life for her? so what if i think she deserves better than this? she doesn't look like she's dying, and she sure as hell isn't asking my help. what do i do?

what would you do?

Today i picked up a book, indulged, and thought, i love You. but i miss You. and i wondered why i strayed in the first place.

and how i could go back.

where's Your hand again?

i tag: you, you and you, who's reading over his shoulder.

edit: whoops i guess i have a knack for making things sound worse than they are. that just proves that i shouldn't blog when sleepy. everything's aaa-okay, thanks everyone for their concerned msn-s. *hug*