haven't done much work lately. and i don't think its just the ORD-going-to-graduate-can't-give-a-shit-anymore-cuz-my-CAP-ain't-gonna-get-much-higher thing. it worries me, and at the same time, i couldn't give two flying peanuts about it. i think i might be using what's been happening right now as an excuse for my laziness, letting my mind drift to the negatives more than it really has reason to be.i don't know. going through the days and motions in routine blank-ness can be somewhat therapeutic, and yet not. this is kinda strange to say but i can't wait for sunday morning when i can hide out for one hour in church, blending into the congregation where you are at once alone with God, all the while being part of an amicable community, who for once expects nothing of you [or even knows you, hopefully. :)]

i'm not weird. its just nice sometimes to be alone with your thoughts.

oh but there is one suggestion for everyone tho... watch Finding Neverland. :) [yet another excuse to slack off ;)]