swing while you're winning

the weeks just don't ease up on you. i've just finished with a french test, which i hope that i'd do okay in, and am so looking forward to next week, with a test on monday and wednesday, and an assignment due friday. yippie.

a recent turn of events has left me slightly unsure of myself. on the one hand its left me saddened, and more than just a little guilty, but liberated, and yet with this liberation a whole new string of resposibilities and new things to consider, that makes it just that little bit more complicated. but in this mess, i suppose the only thing that stands out is that i'm a fool to trust so easily and to take everything someone says at face value.

that, and the it is exactly in the biggest crowd, where you meet one new person every ten mins, that you feel most alone.

i suppose its a question of whether or not you want to be jaded or hang on like a crazy person to that fairy tale ideal. because sometimes life just decides to hand out all their bags of shit at one go, and its easy to just give up and let it get to you. on the other hand, its also easy to think of it as just another bump in the road, that things will get better, eventually. depending on the situation, and your current mood, i suppose it could swing either way just as easily.

on other more intriguing things, i seem to have spies. or at least, someone/people who know some things i don't, and have very mysteriously left cryptic one-liners on my blog to hint at them. hmm. thank you, anyway, i'm not sure if the intention was to make things better, but they will help, eventually.