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have you ever been in that situation, where you want to do one thing, but you know it wouldnt be the right thing to do, at least not now, and so you go and do something else that you also want to do, but that would mess up the original thing, and either way you go, either thing you decide to do, you'll be frowned upon anyway?

i feel so trapped. like either which way i go i wouldnt be able to avoid pissing at least someone off, or to avoid talk. and i'm not even talking about big decisions here, just normal everyday things.

i suppose it really is almost impossible to please everybody. and when you try, you just end up doing things that you really don't want to, just so that the other person doesn't get upset. its okay if you do it for your other half, because then you're doing it because you want them to be happy, and not because u just don't want someone to get upset.

sometimes i think thats why life with him was that much easier... there was only one person i really wanted to see happy, and that was reward in itself. and whats more, there was always someone to help me fight these battles with, and tell me that at the end of the day, everything's gonnabe okay.

ah well. these things are just secondary, and thankfully, i still have a great bunch of friends who have been here to help and tell me the same thing. i still miss my friends who have been kidnapped by australia, but don't worry guys, the ones left here are just as great. :D