Monday, March 08, 2004

UGH-FIED TO THE MAX

WOW i hate it when people just assume things. oh, oh, WOW.

Its okay if they assume that i'm not chinese or anything that's fine, but wow i so hate it when people just assume that they won't see me ANYMORE just because i'm attached. like, hello? i've been attached for SO LONG, ya???????? and he's ord already since like last year. UGh.

what does this person take me for, like really? that in my life whenever i'm not in school i'm just somehow GLUED to Len? like i don't have things that i wanna do on my own, my own stuff?! oh COME ON, you're the one who's so damned busy with what you wanna do and you can say that about me? excuse me, i see the others much more than you do. since when has love become such a label, such a stigma, that when someone gets attached means that person just goes away?

and when did friendship become so...quantitative? that if you don't see that person enough then things turn bad and go wrong and suddenly both sides are blaming each other that its the other person that doesn't make time? doesn't that sound more like a relationship than a friendship? for heavens sake, banu and elaine are like gazillion miles away and i don't see them and talk to them that often and things between us are still great.

is that then the measure of true friendship? that you'll survive anything, even distance, and time? i'm not saying that friendship doesn't need work and time, it does, like every relationship, but how much is not enough? and when does not seeing the other person enough turn into she's not a good enough friend, when u've been THERE for the person for so long? are friendships meant to be high maintenance?

truth be told, i'm quite sick of all this what-it-means-to-be-real-friends thing. why can't all my friends be like the rest?