I don't know why, but i really don't like Valentines' Day.

I've always grown up to hate it, all through Crescent and in JC too. i guess it started when my dearest bestfriend set me up on a blind date [of which i knew nothing of at the time, i thought i was meeting her] and i was stood up, and decided to leave like 4 hours later, fuming. i suppose that started the valentines'-day-sucks-ball rolling, and it just didn't stop gaining momentum.

maybe the day just hasn't been good to me. like last year, my first ever valentines' day where i actually had someone to spend it with, was quite effectively ruined when Len was stuck in army. what luck. we did get to meet each other, eventually, but both wasted the time being upset that we didn't get to be with each other the most of the day. yikes. i guess it was also because it being my first valentines with someone, and with Len, i kinda expected things to be... i don't know. earth shakingly romantic to a certain degree. of course, when u set such high standards, chances are, you'll fall from such a height that you'll rip through the safety net below and hit rock bottom. [when things really weren't as bad as i'd imagined.]

this valentines i'm just not going to expect anything. the valentines' day blues have come and left pretty swiftly, and all we have planned is to ride the day out. i think we'd both have more fun just doing our normal things rather than have a whole hoo haa planned and being stressed over it. Well, least we're going see Vic perform on that day! she's gonnabe rapping, sooo heh its gonna be fun.

happy Valentines' day all, and remember, if you don't love yourself, you make it hard for someone to love you.