it warmed my heart that when Important Event rolled around yesterday afternoon, the family remembered, and some even texted to wish me luck.
brother #1 texted me first, saying our very excited mother reminded him. i told him it meant very much to me that he had bothered to wish me luck, so when Important Event was over, he was the first one i texted with the news.
he was mighty happy for me, but when i told him of my indecision he was also the one who said exactly what i needed to hear: "you have to pray. you have the answer within you. also, remember you are young, it's okay to take chances even if it turns out to be the wrong decision later."
i do believe my heart broke. i'd forgotten how much he loves me, and how much i've missed him.
then because i was in the area, i called brother #2. before i even asked to meet, he asked how Important Event went. i was touched that he remembered, because he was going through an Important Event himself. he agreed to meet me in a heartbeat to hear all about it. but silly me, i walked to the wrong building and it didn't happen in the end. (at least i had my first toffeenut latte of the year)
and when i went back to the office, a text message awaited from said excited mother. she told me what she thought i should do, but said that it was my life, and that it was up to me.
finally, although i came back past his bedtime, dad was up just to let me know he heard what happened (via excited mom, of course) and that whatever i decide to do would be good, and he was happy for me.
i honestly didn't expect anyone to remember besides the mother, so i really can't put into words how touched i was that the entire family did. the gratitude turned into actual heartache when i thought of how i've not been the best daughter/sister, and i don't have the same kind of relationships some of my friends have with their parents/siblings - but i guess i'm forgiven, because apparently when it comes to things that matter, they're there, and they can be counted on.
praise You for my family. thank you family for being concerned, and bothering to actually talk it to death with me, even tho' everyone knows this decision has its pros and cons, and whatever i decide in the end would be okay.
of course, TheBoyfriend remembered too, despite having more important things on his plate right now. thanks dear. :)