it was raining when i knocked off, got on the bus and began the long journey made longer by the rain-made jam home. it was also during this same bus ride that i was killing myself for being the worst person alive.
you see, usually i struggle and manage to keep my temper somewhat, listening till someone has finished with what he has to say, but unfortunately, my fuse is shorter-than-usual when it comes to my family.
more specifically, my mother. which, ironically, is the same person in the family i love best.
for those who don't know my mother, let me tell u what kind of person she is: the nicest one you'd find in the world. and, i'm not ashamed to say, a woman of incredible strength and faith, and an inspiration. but most of all, the nicest person in the world.
needless to say, i was feeling more than just a little bit guilty for losing my patience and snapping at her over the phone. as much as i kept telling myself to be patient, i found myself being the person i've always hated: short tempered, snappy, and unreasonably irritable... all because she was trying to "share with me" this money-making idea she might be interested in.
so the bus journey home was just a little more than excruciating. i was just in the midst of a melodramatic self-scolding when i get an sms from my mother:
"Do u know that today is my anniversary?"
my mother: guilt-tripper extraordinaire.
no, i had completely forgotten it was my parent's anniversary. and in my household, the parental's anniversary means the children bring the parents out for dinner, so. tall double guilt expresso to go, thanks.
no mum, i'm sorry, i forgot, i replied... then she calls me back and goes "angel, are you stuck on the bus? havent had dinner right? i buy for you. what do you want?"
seriously, my mother has got some skill at making people feel guilty.
...skills which might not be such a bad idea to pick up...
anyway, the deal she was trying to psycho me into sounded too bloody good to be true, and she seemed like she didn't know what she was getting herself into, which was what irritated me the most. sounded like a buncha people trying to scam older ladies blind.
and me, the worst daughter of the nicest mother in the world, getting annoyed at her for being so silly and believing it all.
oh, and one more thing before she hung up: "i havent told dad at all. you're the only one i thought to tell."
*crashes head into wall*