my eyes are still raw from crying so much, tho it has been quite a few days.

its so, so overwhelming to hear your best friend, someone you love and have known through the worst and best time of your life, someone you grew up with, shared everything with and would give everything for... so overwhelming to hear that she has changed so much, that something so amazing has touched her once so headstrong personality that she's changed, and changed into someone i hardly know.

but she sounds so happy. and i am so, so happy for her. its so cliched but seriously, words just can't describe how...... how proud and happy and so so.. just so wonderously happy for her. just to hear her sound so content, to hear that she actually misses someone. sitting in the middle of the arts canteen and half-bawling half-laughing probably made me look like a madwoman, but i couldn't care less at the time.

your more-level-headed-than-you bestfriend is saying that babe, even though you've made a few bad decisions in the past, this is the right choice. you havent been more right in your life, and if you screw it up or throw it out, i'm gonna fly there and kick your ass, i'm serious. don't listen to other ppl who may say that you're being rash, cuz you're not, you're just making a decision, and not doing anything right now yet. listen to me, i've known you, and i know him, and i knew you two when youtwo existed, and i'm telling you, if there ever is going to be, this is it.

I really miss her. its cruel that at crucial turning-point times like this, distance has the edge over us. but i am definitely there in spirit, and am behind her, 110%.

ack thinking about it, about things that have changed, is just making me wanna sob all over again.