I GOT MY NEW DIGITAL CAMERA I GOT MY NEW DIGITAL CAMERA I GOT MY NEW DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!!!

heh alright, i got it with Lenny, so technically, its our digital camera, just that its quite a mouthful to say we got our new digital camera..... ok i'm rambling.

but i AM very excited by it. its the fujifilm A310.

So yes, you will be viewing many pictures soon. yay yay yay yay yay.

on another note, i'm so glad Chinese New Year is finally over. So much drama as usual, this time everything was out in the open, and not just masked tensions. Because i was born later, i didn't get to see my grandfather in his younger days, and so stories about him being iron-fisted and tyrannical were simply stories of the past, and that he is a changed man now. I've always seen him as a pleasant old man, always smiling and nodding [ in eerily the same way my dad does ] even though he and i don't even speak the same language. He'd always been the harmless bent over grandfather, walking with the help of a 'tongkat' and lost in his own thoughts of days gone by.

I never knew he had such a loud voice. And i never knew he had such strength still in him.

and the cousins, all staring at the tv, trying to ignore the huge racket happening right beside us, all of us not knowing what is being said, but i'm pretty sure everyone was just breathing silent sighs.

i know my dad was pretty upset by the whole thing, as well as at how my grandma's memory is getting from bad to worse [ she asked me if she'd given me ang pow 5 times in 5 mins... and i'm not exaggerating] but i hate the way the Chinese family is... he's angry, and upset, and most of all just sad, but i can't get to him, i can't go over and give him a hug, cuz...well... i can't. And i would feel weird doing it too. then he just takes it out on whatever comes by. its just different with him, he's the only one in my family who's like that, and i suppose its cuz he was brought up in a strict teochew family.

ahem, on to more not-so-depressing things, i also visited Len's grandma for the first time on Sunday, and it was the first time in a helluva long time that i wore a dress. it was absolutely nerve-wrecking. i think whenever i meet some part of his family for the first time [ and it seems to always happen on sundays ] i pray EXTRA hard in church that morning haha. Completely discard my usual prayers for people and other stuff and start on this " please God let them like me, PLEASE" mantra. Heh, well, least He heard me, and his grandma is the sweetest.

just that she calls me su ling. cringe.